30th November 2010-the crazy day

ahh..what's on 30th november? my birthday? no.. my anniversary? absolutely no..hehehe..so what? actually on this lucky date the result for first semester of matriculation is announced..i don't want to take my result..if possible, i don't want to know..because in my mind, i thought that i've done very bad in the exam..especially for mathematics paper..

so on around 4.15 pm, my practicum, gathered at Dataran Sri Temenggung to meet our mentor..he was the one who was responsible in handling our exam result..one by one name is mentioned..one of my classmate, Fadzreen Fadzrul..he got 4.00 flat..another boy from my class, also managed to get 4.00 flat..me?..warghh..my hand is trembling..then, i heard my name being called.. Nur Diyana Mustaffa..please come forward..when he gave me the result, he said congratulations diyana..

i looked down..i read carefully.. 4.00 flat??is it true??? i can't believe it!..anyway, thank you Allah..for giving me this oppurtunity..Alhamdulillah..hope that i'll manage to be a better person in the future..

E.G.O 's story..

what's for today? ^^ today we'll be talking on ego..hahaha..
i want to share a story with you all..my friend told me, and i'll share with you..

once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings live together..
one day, there was a storm in the sea and the island was about to get drowned..
every feeling was scared but LOVE made a boat to escape..every feeling
boarded the boat but one feeling left..LOVE got down to see who it was..
it was EGO..LOVE tried and tried but EGO wasn't moving as lot of water was rising..
everyone asked LOVE to leave him and come in the boat but LOVE was made
to love..at last, all the feelings escape and LOVE dies with EGO on the island..
LOVE dies because of EGO..so don't let your ego ruined your love.. :)

how was it? the story really brings a lot of meaning..for those who didn't
realize it..maybe now you can say that you still can handle it..but later, you are the one
who will suffer..remember what i always say in my previous blog?
CHANCES ONLY COME ONCE IN OUR LIFE..GRABBED IT..

yes..it's true..all people have ego in themselves..but we must handle it carefully..
"mengalah tidak semestinya kalah"
triumph and failure is things that will make our life colourful..

as for me, tonight, i've made my mind..i'll give him this second chance..
i really hope that he will not misused it..
and guess what, he said :
'thanks for willing to give him the chance..'
it seems like he really2 appreciate the chances..
maybe he's the one that i'm looking for all this while..
give and take..
that's life..
so..
think twice, act wise..

L.O.V.E-what is it?

-->Absence makes the heart grow fonder
-->Out of sight, out of mind

those are the famous quotes that we usually used to describe about our feelings..
the two quotes bring different meaning when compared to each other..

love is a must in our life..without love, there will be no 'us'..
but..how love will bring joy and happiness in one's life is actually depends
on how the person deals with love..get what i meant?
no? never mind..please try later..hahaha..

dealing with love is not easy..love needs sacrificed..and not all people
success in love because they are not willing to sacrifice..
remember..if you want something, you must sacrificed something..
no pain without pain, right?

life is all about risk..you must get ready to face any challenges that comes
into your way anytime..fight them back..don't run..for if you run,
the problems or challenges will only get bigger..
handle it when it is still small..it's easier..

i would like to share my viewpoint about a topic..many of my friend asks me
about this situation..
'what should they do if they fall in love with a person, but at the
same time, their bestfriend is also in love with the same person,,'
complicated, isn't it..
FRIENDS or LOVE?

yeah..it's really hard to make the choice..but what i can suggest is..

1. if the person you're in love with has a good character..can change you to a better person..and you don't know whether you can find someone like them or not..i think, better don't let the person go..or in other words..choose LOVE.. this is because chances may only come once in our whole life..better grabbed it or you'll regret..your friendship with your bestfriend may break.. (maybe..cause it's actually depends on the person itself..)but as the time goes on, your friend will realized that to love the person sometimes doesn't mean that we must get along them, but to let them go..but
2. if you think that you can find another person like them..the better person, choose your FRIEND..if we are good to people, one day we'll get something as a return..just be patient..maybe the person is not meant for you..whatever happens, there must be a reason behind it..

-- often-heard-sentence = she's / he's my ex-gf /ex-bf
--words that often make us happy = i love you / i miss you
--things that often drive us crazy = clash
--things that are difficult to find = true love
BUT
there is something that we often heard..
FRIENDS..
but it's hard to find
TRUE FRIENDS..

DON'T FORGET TO PRAY TO ALLAH..FOR HE ALWAYS KNOW THE
BEST FOR US.. :)

love the way you lie.. :)

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there And hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there And hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down


Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like
The way it hurts Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry But that's alright
Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there And watch me burn
But that's alright Because I like The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there And hear me cry
But that's alright Because I love The way you lie
I love the way you lie I love the way you lie




yes2..i know it's a lyrics of a famous song..but i just love it.. :)
cause...

water under the bridge..

WATER UNDER THE BRIDGE

Do you realize on my presence?

As the sun shines brilliantly

As the gentle breeze caresses me

You make me feel revived by your flow. . .

Do you realize on my presence?

Should a plane came crashing down

Should a vase broke into smithereens

You make me lose my conscience by your smile. . .

Do you realize on my presence?

Though the past will never repeat

Though the moon and the sun will never meet

You make me feel petrified by your courtesy. . .

May your dreams soar like kites. . .

May your hopes fly high. . .

May you love like there is no tomorrow. . .

May all your tomorrows be magic. . .

why water under the bridge? it's simple..no one cares,noticed about the water under the bridge..this poem is about someone who thinks that his/her presence has no effect on one's life..just imagine..you're in love with someone..and the person didn't even noticed you..how sad it was..but if they did something that will make you hurt,you can't be mad at them for you must remember that they didn't know about your feeling..unless you told them about yours, then they hurt you,then only you can be mad at them..[just for reminder..:)]

please..tell me..

i'm very sure that no one in the earth loves to live in a world that is full with unsolved question or misteries..so do i..this thing has haunted me, including this year for about 2 years..starting around the end of year 2007..i always wanted to know who is this person..but i never know until now..
i really hope that i know..please..tell me..i just want to thank you for giving this beautiful note to me..whoever you are..please turn up..:D

MIRACLES HAPPEN TO THOSE THOU WHO BELIEVE

"stupefy"
so that i can freeze you when you walk by me...

"wingardium leviousa"
so that you'll be able to fly with smile and joy among the angels...

and at night when you ponder among the star
you should know that i'm gazing at the same star..
and when the stars and moon asked to know you, what you say to answer it...?

-guardian angel-

and here is what i want to reply to you..but i don't know to whom should i give this to..

MIRACLES HAPPEN TO THOSE THOU WHO BELIEVE

"aparecium"
so that i'll know who wrote this beautiful note to me..

"orchideous"
so that i can show my thankful to him for
giving me this note..

and at night, when i ponder among the star i should realize
that the star i'm looking for is not far from me all this while..

and when the stars and moon askes to know me, i will say,
"yes..why not..?"

tell me..show yourself..i just want to say thank you..and sorry too...for i didn't notice you all this while..for hurting you..and if you now have someone else, i'll pray for your happiness always..~

When will i change? when the time comes..

what is PSPM? PSPM is 'peperiksaan semester program matrikulasi'..
hmm..without realising, i have been a matriculation student for a semester..does it make any difference in my life? i don't think so..for my heart always says that SAMURA is the best plasce i've ever been..hahaha..

so..about pspm..i cannot say much..i did not do my very best..yes..i'm playing..i've never been serius in whatever i did..although i know that the result for this examination is very2 important, but i don't know what is wrong with me..hmm..math paper, especially..i really regret it..my math paper have never been so empty like this..i cannot answer majority of the question..how can that happen? not enough preparation? maybe..or i cannot adapt the life in matriculation college..
fast-paced..

what makes me feel really bad is, my friend..all my friend keep on saying.."diyana..you are a genius person..clever..i'm sure you can score- lah.."do you all know that actually you will only make me want to kill myself by saying that? please..don't say like that, my friend..especially after exam..hmm..i'll feel very depressed..

as the eldest in the family, i should show a good example to my siblings..but..hmm..i don't know if i can be a role model to them or not..just pray to Allah..for He will always help us..i need to be strong..strong..strong..just go on..give the best in life..don't play2..but when will i change? when the time comes..

For Youths Out There

i came across this inspiring poem in the star newspaper [6 jan '10] and i think that it's good to share it with you all..



Take note everytime the grandfather clock chime
For you can never turn back time
Always reach for the books on the shelf
For it is the only way to improve yourself

You might be lost today
But someday you will somehow find your way
You might have lots of friends when you are happy
But you will only see the true ones when you cry

Take life one day at a time
For only then you will shine
Tell yourself "My dreams are as sweet as honey"
And someday,I'll make them mine

Don't give up hope
For God will always help you cope
Although you might not have anything left to gain
You can always start all over again


[David TMS]

Friendship Forever

this poem is dedicated to all my friends in SAMURA, [4 Gigih, 5 Gigih, Pujangga 3, and not forgotten,all the librarian and KERISMA]..you had make my life full with joy and laughter..really appreciate it..wherever you are now,i'll always wish you all the best..'



FRIENDSHIP FOREVER

you can't judge a book by its cover
or the story by the way it ends
so be alert and aware
of the things that spook and scare
but never be afraid to make friends

you can't judge a house by its colours
or the road by the way it bends
cause that road may lead you
to a house that painted blue
so never be afraid to make friends

making friends take some work and its scary
but its worth it to give a try
or else you might miss a friend like them
and that will be a reason to cry

you can't be afraid they won't like you
or there's no way you're gonna blend
cause the best work of art
comes directly from your heart
when you make them your new friends

so you don't want to jump to conclusion
just because someone is different or new
ghost and goblins are only illusions
but a friend is always true..

a friend is someone you turn to when you have no place to go..
but a true friend is someone you stop and talk to when you have a millions place to be,
and yet..yet..you want to see how they are..
a friend is someone who tells you it will be okay..
but a true friend is someone who stays with you or calls until it is..
a friend is like a day of fine,fine weather..
but a true friend reminds you that somedays..the sky can be blue(even if it isn't right then)
a friend will meet you at the finishing line..
but a true friend lights the way..

5 gigih 2009

pujangga 3 2009

pujangga 3 2008

Am i doing a mistake here?

hmm..finally the SPM result 2009 is announced..Alhamdulillah..straight a..but after all, now i'm studying in Johore Matriculation College..Physical Science..I only applied Petronas scholarship and Yayasan khazanah scholarship..khazanah called me and inform that i've been selected to go to the first stage of the interview..i didn't go to the interview..why?because they offered me to further studies in degree..after all,i'm just an spm certificate holder..i'm not a diploma holder, stpm holder or a level holder..can i study degree by not studying any basic?i don't think so..

then, the next morning,Petronas called me..i've been selected to go to the interview that will be held at UTP..this time,i went to the interview because that is what i really want..being a petronas scholar.. i'm a petronas scholar since form 1 until form 5 and my ambition is to be a petroleum engineer..i've been offered petroleum engineer course at abroad university..how happy i was..unfortunately,on the interview day,i was ill..i cannot perform the quiz well except for the MUET-like examination interview that requires us to speak confidently in english..the interview was held in morning and the quiz is in the evening..i feel very sad for not performing well in the quiz..hmm..maybe there is something good behind all this..hope so..i've been offered a place in UTP in petroleum engineering..but i decided to go to Johor matriculation college..i think that's the best for me..

i'll try my very best if i ever get chances like this again in my life..chances may come only once in my life..so just grabbed it and do the best..remember this my friend..but don't give up if you didn't get what you wish because there is always a good reason behind all things that happen..just go on with the life and appreciate what we have now..